Venting
This school year feels like it has completely changed my life. I say this every year but this one will definitely take the cake for a while. (well prob till next year)
I have learned so much from the people around me and it has been amazing and frustrating at the same time.
I am in a hard place in my life right now, not knowing what the future holds for next year.
I am so happy for my favorite person ever but at the same time I don't want her to change. I want to hang on to her forever and declare to the whole world that she is my best friend and will always be at my side. How do you give advice to someone knowing that it will split you apart. Even though she will be happy I will be miserable. I wish that I could hang onto false hopes that everyone can be happy and we all can just get along but life isn't like that. It's full of lies, back-stabbing, anger, bitterness, lack of compassion, selfishness, lack of trust, and lack of forgiveness.
I guess that is what I have been taught the most by the people around me. Not by all but most have shown these qualities to me this year. I am not blameless by any stretch of the imagination, but I guess I have just been given the opportunity to see people this year with their mask off. I have seen so much fakeness this year I just want to vomit. I am tired of weak friendships. I am not talking about a happy, everyone loves each other thing. A true friendship filled with love, conflict, forgiveness, trust, and Christ as the center. That is what I desire. Christ is the only one who can give that to me, but why aren't other people trying to achieve that too.
God has revealed Himself to me so much in the past few weeks. I am finally 100% Christ centered. I think that is the other reason I am so tired of Christians who condemn others because they don't have the guts to look at themselves. I did it and it wasn't pretty, but it was well worth it. I wish people would own up to their faults instead of telling others that they need to. LOOK IN THE MIRROR when you talk. It isn't that hard. Yeah I struggle with it but at least I do it.
Well I guess that is it for the night.
3 more finals to go and school is over!!!!
Oh yeah an encouraging thought for the night: The Cheesy Gordita Crunch is back at Taco Bell!!!!!! Wut up to my taco bell homie, I miss ya girl!!
I have learned so much from the people around me and it has been amazing and frustrating at the same time.
I am in a hard place in my life right now, not knowing what the future holds for next year.
I am so happy for my favorite person ever but at the same time I don't want her to change. I want to hang on to her forever and declare to the whole world that she is my best friend and will always be at my side. How do you give advice to someone knowing that it will split you apart. Even though she will be happy I will be miserable. I wish that I could hang onto false hopes that everyone can be happy and we all can just get along but life isn't like that. It's full of lies, back-stabbing, anger, bitterness, lack of compassion, selfishness, lack of trust, and lack of forgiveness.
I guess that is what I have been taught the most by the people around me. Not by all but most have shown these qualities to me this year. I am not blameless by any stretch of the imagination, but I guess I have just been given the opportunity to see people this year with their mask off. I have seen so much fakeness this year I just want to vomit. I am tired of weak friendships. I am not talking about a happy, everyone loves each other thing. A true friendship filled with love, conflict, forgiveness, trust, and Christ as the center. That is what I desire. Christ is the only one who can give that to me, but why aren't other people trying to achieve that too.
God has revealed Himself to me so much in the past few weeks. I am finally 100% Christ centered. I think that is the other reason I am so tired of Christians who condemn others because they don't have the guts to look at themselves. I did it and it wasn't pretty, but it was well worth it. I wish people would own up to their faults instead of telling others that they need to. LOOK IN THE MIRROR when you talk. It isn't that hard. Yeah I struggle with it but at least I do it.
Well I guess that is it for the night.
3 more finals to go and school is over!!!!
Oh yeah an encouraging thought for the night: The Cheesy Gordita Crunch is back at Taco Bell!!!!!! Wut up to my taco bell homie, I miss ya girl!!