A whole lot of anger and no one to be mad at....
Mad
it seems that all i am these days.
not raging red skin beat someone up mad more like....
drowning in my own tears of fury mad.
it sucks when you have so much emotion and no one or nothing to exert it on.
i just want something to blame.
i heard God wrong.
this person failed me.
i chose the wrong job.
people just don't understand.
or my personal favorite: people just suck.
i think really i get the most angry with myself and with God.
the two worst people to be mad at.
i can't stand being mad at myself because well that doesn't make me feel any better.
and i hate being mad at God because though the emotion is real i know i shouldn't be mad at God.
so all this fury and i have no idea what to do with it.
so i cry. infuriated tears of helplessness.
hoping that this i just a phase. just a season.
that maybe i have to experience all this pain because
without it i wouldn't be able to truly recognize
the beauty
and the joy
that life has to give.