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I've found a girl who I'm really nuts for. It's weird, cause I know that if she and I were in a relationship, I'd do my best to make it perfect. But I've seen other friends of mine go fall for a woman and it ended up being the end of them. It was unrequited and all I saw was sorrow. I suspect that I am destined for the same. I know it's more than a crush, but I don't know if it's love or infatuation. It sickens me that it could be the latter. She doesn't deserve some silly kid who doesn't know the difference between real feeling and manufactured feeling, and the very fact that statement itself could be driven by an unreal emotion makes me feel very ill. Regardless, I'm going to use this feeling as best I can. I've let it drive me into a workout craze. In the past three days, I've been eating healthier, walking, and lifting weights again. I think this feeling, whatever it is, could be strong enough to drive me to be a better person over the long run, which will help me with the real thing, whether or not I've found it or that it is still to come.
I'm due to back to Mason soon, but I've recieved no word from people I hope to take up residency with. Not their fault, I'm sure, simply the by-product of a busy life. I've decided I really want an IPod. I know, not big news, but for me, it's a big step. I love music, and I'm pretty much skipping the whole portable CD player thing. I'd almost be sad, if the idea of accessing any song at any time didn't sound so awesome. Heck, I don't even care if it isn't that awesome. I'll be satisfied thinking that it's awesome.
I didn't fail any classes last semester, by the way. Turns out the only one I could have failed, I still did well enough to grab a D, which is techinally a form of failing, but I didn't get an 'F' and given all the crap that went down in that class, is damn impressive. The rest were 'A's and 'B's. I'm still gonna retake that class. A guy's got to get his GPA up.
Also, seems I've decided to take up some accents as of late. So, if you happen to hear me say something you don't normally hear me say, don't think too ill of it unless it truly sounds unnatural, in which case a small alert on the subject would be appreciated.
I'm due to back to Mason soon, but I've recieved no word from people I hope to take up residency with. Not their fault, I'm sure, simply the by-product of a busy life. I've decided I really want an IPod. I know, not big news, but for me, it's a big step. I love music, and I'm pretty much skipping the whole portable CD player thing. I'd almost be sad, if the idea of accessing any song at any time didn't sound so awesome. Heck, I don't even care if it isn't that awesome. I'll be satisfied thinking that it's awesome.
I didn't fail any classes last semester, by the way. Turns out the only one I could have failed, I still did well enough to grab a D, which is techinally a form of failing, but I didn't get an 'F' and given all the crap that went down in that class, is damn impressive. The rest were 'A's and 'B's. I'm still gonna retake that class. A guy's got to get his GPA up.
Also, seems I've decided to take up some accents as of late. So, if you happen to hear me say something you don't normally hear me say, don't think too ill of it unless it truly sounds unnatural, in which case a small alert on the subject would be appreciated.