waiting
So confused about my emotions lately. Granted i am weaning off my medication and i know thats supposed to make you weird but i hate using that as an excuse. Im watching a stupid movie and ive cried almost every five minutes! Hating the side effects, im always dizzy!
Frustration with my dadddddd... he got mad at me last night for going to dinnner (kind of late) but with boys. i dont have any girlfriends in gainesville right now! not that i have much anyways. soooo idk what to do. probably become a hermit. whateversss, im so like not caring about anything right now.
Another weird thing now is that i want someone... i feel like a loser, but i just need someone there that i can just idk let loose on... idk how to explain it lol. prob doesnt help that im watching sappy movies and reading stupid books.
also ive realized i really hate him. maybe not hate... well actually... yes. fuck him for what hes done to me.
i feel sooo scatterbrained lately... what to doooooo?
Frustration with my dadddddd... he got mad at me last night for going to dinnner (kind of late) but with boys. i dont have any girlfriends in gainesville right now! not that i have much anyways. soooo idk what to do. probably become a hermit. whateversss, im so like not caring about anything right now.
Another weird thing now is that i want someone... i feel like a loser, but i just need someone there that i can just idk let loose on... idk how to explain it lol. prob doesnt help that im watching sappy movies and reading stupid books.
also ive realized i really hate him. maybe not hate... well actually... yes. fuck him for what hes done to me.
i feel sooo scatterbrained lately... what to doooooo?