Colder, she's crying on your shoulder... Hold her, tell her everything is gonna be fine.
Ker, I replied to your comment too, but I figured I'd also just say it in here: I'm not mad at you, and I said like 3 times in the last entry that I wasn't mad. This whole thing w/ him is just confusing as fuck and I get all defensive for both of us (me n him)... I shouldn't, but I do. I know you went through something similar and I know he doesn't like 'care' about me, but I don't like to think about it like that bc that would mean letting him go n letting go of everything and I'm not ready for that. But I love you and never think that I'd ever not talk to you over anything like this bc you're one of my BEST friends and me n you have been through so much n you're always there for me so I'm not mad, I'm happy you look out for me so much, cos I need that, but you just put things a little harshly and I wasn't ready to hear them... its for the best I hear them, but acceptance is hard.
I'm hung in such a bad place at the moment... I feel so icky.... like not sick, not even sad, just bleh.
This week... I don't know. This week has been pretty great, actaully... chilling w/ my friends in and out of school, good lunches, good phone convos, good times all around, but I just don't feel like myself. I haven't for the past couple of days meaning yesterday n today.
Too many tests, too many worries, too much bullshit.
I gotta try and not let it get me down, but I'm so worn out and I have to work tomorrow and I don't really feel like it and I don't know what's wrong w/ me.
Its so weird not to even feel sad... I feel so un-Jasmine aka tired, un-random, wanting to do homework to get it out of the way unlike waiting until Sunday night...
I think I should go on a diet... my sweater today was kinda big on me, but like not and it made me look fat. Nothing extreme, I wanna stay a size three, but I still wanna lose weight.
Hope I did well on History today. I got a 100 on my mastery quiz, but I forgot my refernece for homework so i got a O on that, but I think I did really well on this french test I stayed after for.
Good lunch today cos Nuzum said we could go to first lunch before our test so I ate w/ Katie, Gared, and Erica and Jake and two guys from my history class cos they're friends w/ Jake.
When I figure how I feel about everything (aka him... once again, don't say his name) I'll feel better, I think, but I'm still trying to work it all out in my head.
<3
Jazzy
I'm hung in such a bad place at the moment... I feel so icky.... like not sick, not even sad, just bleh.
This week... I don't know. This week has been pretty great, actaully... chilling w/ my friends in and out of school, good lunches, good phone convos, good times all around, but I just don't feel like myself. I haven't for the past couple of days meaning yesterday n today.
Too many tests, too many worries, too much bullshit.
I gotta try and not let it get me down, but I'm so worn out and I have to work tomorrow and I don't really feel like it and I don't know what's wrong w/ me.
Its so weird not to even feel sad... I feel so un-Jasmine aka tired, un-random, wanting to do homework to get it out of the way unlike waiting until Sunday night...
I think I should go on a diet... my sweater today was kinda big on me, but like not and it made me look fat. Nothing extreme, I wanna stay a size three, but I still wanna lose weight.
Hope I did well on History today. I got a 100 on my mastery quiz, but I forgot my refernece for homework so i got a O on that, but I think I did really well on this french test I stayed after for.
Good lunch today cos Nuzum said we could go to first lunch before our test so I ate w/ Katie, Gared, and Erica and Jake and two guys from my history class cos they're friends w/ Jake.
When I figure how I feel about everything (aka him... once again, don't say his name) I'll feel better, I think, but I'm still trying to work it all out in my head.
<3
Jazzy