Uplifting Intentionz
oh the sun shall not spite thee by day nor the moon by night
Well.. As you all know I have been through some major ish within the last month. But i made it! I sure did, by the grace of God I am content with my life, and everything is at ease. I wish I could say the same for those who are currently going through the trials and tribulations of life. Life sure isnt easy, but like everything else... if you work hard at it.. you will get your reward.
Today's journal entry... is basically my thoughts and my ways of getting through what i went through. For the new people...
1. My uncle passed away 3/14/05 RIP
2. Family friend, Authur, passed away 3/14/05 RIP
3. Cheekz and I are no longer. (took a huge toll on me)
4. $2000 hold on my account for school.
5. Credits will not transfer..
6. Lost my job
All of those things put me in such a deep depression that I started to have flash backs of cutting myself. I also developed an ulcer.. which is pure hell now.
"He will not slumber nor sleep.. The lord is thy keeper.. the lord is thy shade upon thy right hand. Sun shall not spite thee by day nor the moon by night. He shall preserve thy soul even forever more. "
For every one out there going through things... Maybe this will get you through your tough times.. like it has done for me.
You have to WORK for your healing, you have to push yourself there. No matter how many times the devil tells u mentally how IMPOSSIBLE it may be... IT ISNT. I prayed all the time, listened to POSITIVE music, Gospel. I wouldnt LET myself feel the pain, i wouldnt LET myself cry any more. I surrounded myself around positive people, and they helped me get through it. Thank you Devona, Lauren, and Joy. Very very much preciated.
Life is WAY to short to waste even one hour of it on depression. Due to circumstances that you cant change. For those of you that have seen "Passion of the Christ" or know what Jesus went through for YOU.. then think about this.. he endured a helluva lot more than ur mind, body, and soul could eva endure. ur pain is NOTHING compared to his... and he still held his head high.. and still got thru it... and now he is living the best life he can eva live... meaning... u CAN get thru this... either one of two ways..with ya head held high, and putting the lesson learned to use or... depressed...down n out.. and with ya head held low and miss all the good thangs that may come ya way cuz ya head is hanging.. so keep ya head held high at all times... nothing lasts forever. and this pain will fade... and u will be happy.
Tests are handed out every single day to each and every one of us. Look at Jesus.. he was PERFECT.. and he was given the ULTIMATE test. He claimed his father, and is in pure bliss. So who are we to complain? Ya dig? On da real... every thing u go thru.. there is a lesson at the end.. and u take that lesson and APPLY it where need be. Everything happens for a reason. Ride the rollercoaster till the end.. and you will then see what that reason was.
Hmm.. that is it for now. I hope that it helped some of yhall.. BeZ n God bless
-Nik
Well.. As you all know I have been through some major ish within the last month. But i made it! I sure did, by the grace of God I am content with my life, and everything is at ease. I wish I could say the same for those who are currently going through the trials and tribulations of life. Life sure isnt easy, but like everything else... if you work hard at it.. you will get your reward.
Today's journal entry... is basically my thoughts and my ways of getting through what i went through. For the new people...
1. My uncle passed away 3/14/05 RIP
2. Family friend, Authur, passed away 3/14/05 RIP
3. Cheekz and I are no longer. (took a huge toll on me)
4. $2000 hold on my account for school.
5. Credits will not transfer..
6. Lost my job
All of those things put me in such a deep depression that I started to have flash backs of cutting myself. I also developed an ulcer.. which is pure hell now.
"He will not slumber nor sleep.. The lord is thy keeper.. the lord is thy shade upon thy right hand. Sun shall not spite thee by day nor the moon by night. He shall preserve thy soul even forever more. "
For every one out there going through things... Maybe this will get you through your tough times.. like it has done for me.
You have to WORK for your healing, you have to push yourself there. No matter how many times the devil tells u mentally how IMPOSSIBLE it may be... IT ISNT. I prayed all the time, listened to POSITIVE music, Gospel. I wouldnt LET myself feel the pain, i wouldnt LET myself cry any more. I surrounded myself around positive people, and they helped me get through it. Thank you Devona, Lauren, and Joy. Very very much preciated.
Life is WAY to short to waste even one hour of it on depression. Due to circumstances that you cant change. For those of you that have seen "Passion of the Christ" or know what Jesus went through for YOU.. then think about this.. he endured a helluva lot more than ur mind, body, and soul could eva endure. ur pain is NOTHING compared to his... and he still held his head high.. and still got thru it... and now he is living the best life he can eva live... meaning... u CAN get thru this... either one of two ways..with ya head held high, and putting the lesson learned to use or... depressed...down n out.. and with ya head held low and miss all the good thangs that may come ya way cuz ya head is hanging.. so keep ya head held high at all times... nothing lasts forever. and this pain will fade... and u will be happy.
Tests are handed out every single day to each and every one of us. Look at Jesus.. he was PERFECT.. and he was given the ULTIMATE test. He claimed his father, and is in pure bliss. So who are we to complain? Ya dig? On da real... every thing u go thru.. there is a lesson at the end.. and u take that lesson and APPLY it where need be. Everything happens for a reason. Ride the rollercoaster till the end.. and you will then see what that reason was.
Hmm.. that is it for now. I hope that it helped some of yhall.. BeZ n God bless
-Nik