Feb 18, 2005 13:46
Riding this endless ferris wheel
The promising words of Him to hear
Walking down this never ending road
Wanting to see the end at last
But it has dissapeared.
Someday when I'm ready
My King will take me by the hand
And gently we will cross together
Over the golden bridge
Into his Holy Land.
yeah, the poem sucks but it says how I'm feeling.
wow. last night was not good. I am trying so hard to depend on God and trust him to bring me joy and deliverance but it has been so hard. I keep slipping up and last night I slipped up big time. I've been prayin' like a mad person but Satan is attacking at the same time. After youth group last week, I had the most amazing time with God, just some one on one time, and he filled me completely. Then this whole "situation" happened, and what's worse is that the person who caused this is completely ignorant. I know Jesus is going to handle this and I have given it up ot Him,bt I'm like Jonah, after Ninevah. "Okay God, they were bad, so you're going to punish them, right?" But God is merciful and compassionate and he forgives. So meanwhile I'm sitting on the sidelines waiting for this person to get struck by lightning or punished in some way, and God keeps telling me "no, I forgave them, let it go."
I can't wait to go to college, cuz I'm so sick of high school. To quote Ferris: "...it's a bit childish, but then again, so is high school." I'm trying to get ahead so I can graduate a year early. That's one of the perks of homeschooling.
I'm tired. I think I'm going to go take a nap.
Emily I'm psyked for tonight! ;) whoo hoo!
oh and btw, gotta love the banana pictures! you guys make me laugh!