Ran the course
Just as i predicted another relationship has pretty much ran it's course. It was soured after our argument last week.
She is a very nice girl it's just that I need to have a relationship that is tangible. With her working late hours at night I don't get to see her other then her climbing into bed or parting ways in the morning when I am on my way to work. We have sex but again that is at night when it's so late that it is hard to have any kind of communication when it is over. Sex is important to me but not more important then spending time together, having intresting conversations or even just watching television or a movie together.
Now comes the hard part that I am not very good at...the breakup. I hate to hurt anyone else or their feelings but it is something that has to be done. I am not very good at this. It's a hard enough hurdle saying the right things but it will be even harder when she cries. I hate this part with a passion. It hurts me just as well. Sometimes I stick around longer then I should or make things worse because I drag out the inevitable for weeks. I'm weak.
Last night we argued for a while because she wasn't happy that I went out with some friends while she was working to watch the NBA Finals. She was more upset that I was with a girl who is just a friend of mine and told me I wasn't allowed to be out with her anymore because she feels that this girl likes me more then a friend. So untrue. We have never been together like that. It has always been strctly friendship. I always feel like I am defending myself. Always looked at like I am a cheat or up to no good. It gets exhausting and really puts strain on our relationship.
My vacation starts next week and I really need to try to handle this situation before that. This was I can clear my mind at least and take a few days to recharge before heading back into work.
She is a very nice girl it's just that I need to have a relationship that is tangible. With her working late hours at night I don't get to see her other then her climbing into bed or parting ways in the morning when I am on my way to work. We have sex but again that is at night when it's so late that it is hard to have any kind of communication when it is over. Sex is important to me but not more important then spending time together, having intresting conversations or even just watching television or a movie together.
Now comes the hard part that I am not very good at...the breakup. I hate to hurt anyone else or their feelings but it is something that has to be done. I am not very good at this. It's a hard enough hurdle saying the right things but it will be even harder when she cries. I hate this part with a passion. It hurts me just as well. Sometimes I stick around longer then I should or make things worse because I drag out the inevitable for weeks. I'm weak.
Last night we argued for a while because she wasn't happy that I went out with some friends while she was working to watch the NBA Finals. She was more upset that I was with a girl who is just a friend of mine and told me I wasn't allowed to be out with her anymore because she feels that this girl likes me more then a friend. So untrue. We have never been together like that. It has always been strctly friendship. I always feel like I am defending myself. Always looked at like I am a cheat or up to no good. It gets exhausting and really puts strain on our relationship.
My vacation starts next week and I really need to try to handle this situation before that. This was I can clear my mind at least and take a few days to recharge before heading back into work.