Enough already!!!!!!!
So, they said wednesday... then tuesday night they said friday... then today they say tommorow....grrrrrrrr... I try to prepair for this the best i can mentally and they seem to wanna make it as difficult as possible, im starting to get surrly... So anyway, i had more blood taken and finally finally they did another MRI just to make sure all is where they expect it to be come morgen.. so to do this MRI they have to inject me with a contrasting dye, if the surgery goes anything like this very simple thing im FUCKED.... no one seemed to be able to find a good vein today and llord knows they tried, ive got bruses and cotton balls with med tape all over both arms and hands. I love needles when they have ink in them but im not to wild about the blood sucking variety, although up until today those litle moment have been painless.
I dont know maybe im just stressed out about tomorrow and what the future holds, I really hope this all goes according to plan tomorrow, one more delay in this and i might flip out.
There is only one last hope to avoid this op , and that lays with the MRI i just took, if the tumor moved, which is doubtful but if it did they may change the procedure and go through the nose again, but the chances of that are slim and none.
So here we go again... last meal no eating or drinking after... sleep ... drugs to "relax me" which i am gonna take.. and then the mask... next time i open my eyes i should be in ICU with a nasty hangover , few tubes in my head, 1000 wires n shit attached to me and hopefully all is still operational.
Isaid it before and ill say it again now, to everyone who sent me good luck wishes and so on thank you so so so so so much, all of it ment more to me then i could ever express here,
To the ones that went out of there way and stopped there lives if even for a moment to come say hello and see me in all different states of pre and post op regalia thank you.... To Frank, Fez and Luc... you guys could not have tuned up at a more pefect time, thank you. Doris, i know it hard for you to see me like this but thanks for coming anyway and for the sushi, it will always be the best sushi ive ever had. Samineh, your a doll thanks for your smile and the talks, Nadja, even when you had no time you found time for me thank you and to my beloved Kathrin, i know all of this is almost if not harder on you then me and yet you have been here for me every step of the way. I promice when this is all over we will get away for a few days to come down from all this. "in Joy and Sorrow" Ich liebe dich!
well folks its time for me to pack in case they change my room in the next couple days , soon as i can... and trust me i am 100% geek prepaired there will be a post from me to let ya al know how it went. Keep the good vibes coming please and ill see ya all on the other side
with all of my heart
Love and Lights
Jay
PS...Mr tumor says goodbye =oP
OP 8uhr donerstag...with luck ill be back in time for formula 1