Keepin' ya Posted....
so here I sit Saturday morning, they got me in a bigger room which is nice and for the first time in weeks im ALONE!!!!!!!! don't get me wrong, I love everyone that's come to visit and id not gotten this far without smacking someone without the visits and kind words from friends, I really feel the love and cant begin to express what it means to me, In so many ways im forever changed...
Anyway, last few days have been pretty boring other then My Eye is doing great... i feel freaking fantastic (aside from being coup' d up).
The new surgery date is the 5th of September Wednesday. and they say ill be fit to go home a week after. hope they are right. Its not so bad here really, i got to go home yesterday for 3 glorious hours.. to pay bills mainly and get new cloths. got to play a bit of guitar which was painful cause i had to stop ...=0( I should have brought the LP with me but i think id get some dirty looks if i walked into the hospital with that thing so i settled for my little Korg Midi keyboard...maybe make some tunes on the laptop while i have the weekend free sorta.
I reckon Monday all the fun starts again..pre- op test..blood blood blood and yet even more blood test... eye test.. smell test taste test hearing all that and then hopefully Tuesday done early... only time ill take any sleeping pill and then next AM shot of pain killer and on the cart to O.R.
Its I got an e mail from someone yesterday that said that they were happy for me that i recovered so quickly from the first surgery and the prognosis for a speedy recovery looks good for the second but to give my self time to heal...physically yes but mentally too....never really thought of that before but im not sure i need to, I mean my entire life I've seen some pretty fucked up things and been through some pretty fucked up things and although effected by them i don't think I have ever been truly traumatized by anything . Im sure that statement in itself would send shrinks in a frenzy but ah well, i stand by what i've said from the begging of all this... all i want is what i had when this all started... my vision before although annoying was passable, just get the shit out so it don't kill me, i love my life right now i would really like to get on with it.
The surgery will go ok i know and im really happy that it seems it s gonna fix more then blurry vision... but there still that x factor no matter how positive i am i cant shake
all the best
Jay
