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*sniffing and curling up*
My friend's mother passed away yesterday and I couldnt sleep or anything. I was awake trying to be there for my friend and I can't help feeling so selfish? I mean... he goes afk for a hour and so to be there for his father and sister but I sit here worried, wondering, and wishing that he will pay attention to me.. like WTF? O.o I am inhuman *sobs* and I feel like I shouldnt be online to not feel like that yet there I go... being selfish when I shouldn't be disappearing and being there for him. His mother passed away in her sleep all of sudden for NO reason and the family doesn't want autospy so no one will never know why.
It is a debate in my head of why no autospy... If your love ones died sudden *god forbid it* would you want an autospy or not? I would probably want one happening to find out the reason why but um.. anyways. She was only in her late 60's so I'm not sure if it was her time to go or was her heart having trouble already?
I really need some advice and comfort please since I can't ask him for his comforting to me because HE needs comfort first. *sniffing*
My friend's mother passed away yesterday and I couldnt sleep or anything. I was awake trying to be there for my friend and I can't help feeling so selfish? I mean... he goes afk for a hour and so to be there for his father and sister but I sit here worried, wondering, and wishing that he will pay attention to me.. like WTF? O.o I am inhuman *sobs* and I feel like I shouldnt be online to not feel like that yet there I go... being selfish when I shouldn't be disappearing and being there for him. His mother passed away in her sleep all of sudden for NO reason and the family doesn't want autospy so no one will never know why.
It is a debate in my head of why no autospy... If your love ones died sudden *god forbid it* would you want an autospy or not? I would probably want one happening to find out the reason why but um.. anyways. She was only in her late 60's so I'm not sure if it was her time to go or was her heart having trouble already?
I really need some advice and comfort please since I can't ask him for his comforting to me because HE needs comfort first. *sniffing*