[cancer] Beginning the journey, again

[jaylake]

Life is so damned circular.

Last Friday I received the carcinoembyronic antigen (CEA) bloodwork via the online records system from my clinic. It indicated a spike of well over 400% in my CEA levels. I didn't see a rise in my CEA levels with either of my previous tumors - they'd always been pretty flat

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[abennettstrong]

Good luck with the rodeo. I hope that, indeed, the previous round of chemo was efficient and there are no metastatic blooms, nothing but this single site. You're in my thoughts.

Sitting is not my strong suit

[polydad]

According to my Buddhist friends, what one does with suffering is sit with it. I'm a doer; I've never been good at sitting.

I assume you know that if there *is* something I can do for you, you should ask for it, but in the absence of some such thing, and given that our lack of immediate geographic proximity makes it infeasible to sit with you, I'm going to go put up a greenhouse. Later, unless you show up here to consume it with us, a beer will be consumed in your honor.

best,

Joel

Re: Sitting is not my strong suit

[jaylake]

Enjoy your greenhouse and your beer.

[beth_bernobich]

*hugs*

Love you.

Fuck cancer.

[scarlettina]

What it boils down to is that this is a surgically addressable, single-site metastasis.

I suppose that if there's a bright side to this, that's it, though I still hate it for the thief of your time, energy, and brain it is.

I'm not so much afraid this time as pissed off.

And the anger is what will strengthen you and get you through. Yours and, yeah, everyone else's, too.

I send love, as ever.

[kshandra]

I'm not so much afraid this time as pissed off. I've realized that's because I'm in familiar territory.

The things I never meant to learn. I've been to this rodeo before, and I'm fucking tired of it.

Boy howdy, don't we know that tune.

You're in my thoughts, Jay.