wrote this last night...

[jayisfree]

i knew that this would happen eventually. you cannot run from yourself.
thought if i just kept busy, it would all go away. and that was the biggest mistake of all.

i am faced with precisely what i have been dreading for the longest time.

so here i am.
october.
leaves and rain falling.
and i am still waiting to hear his car pull up.

some things will never change.

i do not know where he is or what he is doing, but i wonder if he could hear the crack too.
we have killed something i never thought would die.