back to the corner

[jayisfree]

i don't know what i'm supposed to do.
i feel used, alone, hurt, and confused.
i've never been more set apart in my entire life.
how do i fix it?
every time things get better, they seem to quickly spoil any way they can.
i'm sick of it, but i'm trapped.
if i get myself out, where will i go?
i want to leave. i really do.
it feels like the only solution.
isn't that what we all want?
to leave somewhere, just vanish without a trace, and start over.
but the wondering would kill me i think.
does anyone miss me? do they care?

so how do you start over?