would you just let me apologize!?
ok...so, daryl and i got in a huge fight yesterday. probably the biggest one we have ever had. no joke. there was a lot of swearing, and throwing the past in each other's faces. it was pretty fucking nasty. this was between, like, 12:30 and 12:50. he cut it short, said "i don't want to have this conversation" then said "love you", and i sort of just slammed down the phone with a small shriek of rage.
then, i thought about it, cried about it, and decided to call him back, (against my better judgement) to apologize or something along those lines. he didn't answer.
which further pissed me off because that meant he was either screening my calls, or he had just left. and he doesn't have his car right now, so that would mean that someone would have been there to pick him up. already. what the hell.
so, we go to our separate corners to cool off. i guess. but then, the rest of the night rolls around, and there's no phone call. he always calls before he goes to bed. but he didn't.
so this morning, when i woke up, i called him. no answer. now, maybe he's at church or out with his parents, but...i'm getting worried.
i was out of line. everything i said had some truth in it, but i could have very well presented my thoughts in another, less offensive way.
so my question is, what do i do now?
i can't apologize, can't even hear his voice. what if it's the end and i don't even know it?
maybe i'm paranoid. probably. but this still sucks.
then, i thought about it, cried about it, and decided to call him back, (against my better judgement) to apologize or something along those lines. he didn't answer.
which further pissed me off because that meant he was either screening my calls, or he had just left. and he doesn't have his car right now, so that would mean that someone would have been there to pick him up. already. what the hell.
so, we go to our separate corners to cool off. i guess. but then, the rest of the night rolls around, and there's no phone call. he always calls before he goes to bed. but he didn't.
so this morning, when i woke up, i called him. no answer. now, maybe he's at church or out with his parents, but...i'm getting worried.
i was out of line. everything i said had some truth in it, but i could have very well presented my thoughts in another, less offensive way.
so my question is, what do i do now?
i can't apologize, can't even hear his voice. what if it's the end and i don't even know it?
maybe i'm paranoid. probably. but this still sucks.