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So...I'm in a funk today.
Here it goes:
I live in a suburb, just North of one of the GREATEST cities on this planet. (Austin) I moved to Austin in 1999 and instantly fell in love with it. Well, I left in 2007 to go to school in Brenham and then in The Woodlands. I met my fiance, Eddie, in December of '08 at a bar in The Woodlands. He had been in Texas for less than a year I believe. He was born in Ohio, then moved to Florida in his early teens and lived there up until he moved to Texas in '07/'08ish. So, needless to say- he didn't know much about Texas...let alone Austin.
Well, from the minute I met him, I made sure that he know I had NO intentions of staying in the Houston area for long. I knew that as soon as I found my way out, I was going straight back home to Austin. I have never felt so at home anywhere else. Long story short, Eddie and I moved to Austin together in July of last year. i love him with every bit of my heart and I love living with him.
Here's my issue-
When we first moved in, I was going to school full time and working. He was working full time and decided to go to school in October. Our schedules never allowed us time to see each other...ever. We kissed each other goodbye in the morning and kissed each other goodnight after work or school. I dropped out of school in November and started working full time. Well, the bar I was working out was burned down in january. So from January through March I was jobless. So, I got to see Eddie when he came home from work and changed into his chef coat and ran out to school. This was a real treat for me.
Eddie graduated from Texas Cullinary Academy 2 weeks ago. So, from October through the end of July we saw each other less than 24 hours a week. Now that he's out of school, we have from 7 (after I get off work) until bedtime with each other and some Sundays...what do we spend that time doing?
Nothing.
and I HATE IT. I want to get out, I want to do things, i want to go places, I want to experience things, I want to live life!!!! We are way too young to just puiss our lives away sitting on our couch and drinking beer. But, everytime I present an idea to him that strays farther than the stupid suburb we live in...he instantly turns it down. (Downtown Austin is probably a 12 minute drive from our apartment)
I tried it again today. I sent him an E-MAIL with a list of about 10 things that are going in Austin this month. (half of which were FREE) He turned me down. So, I told him that if he doesn't peel his ass off the couch and start going places with me...even if it's just going on a walk or fishing...something simple like that... then I'm gonna start going without him. Simple as that.
I'm sorry if I've posted an entry before bitching about the same thing, but it really gets to me. I love this man so much...SO MUCH. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him...but, I'll be damned if I spend the rest of it just sitting around watching the world pass me by.
Here it goes:
I live in a suburb, just North of one of the GREATEST cities on this planet. (Austin) I moved to Austin in 1999 and instantly fell in love with it. Well, I left in 2007 to go to school in Brenham and then in The Woodlands. I met my fiance, Eddie, in December of '08 at a bar in The Woodlands. He had been in Texas for less than a year I believe. He was born in Ohio, then moved to Florida in his early teens and lived there up until he moved to Texas in '07/'08ish. So, needless to say- he didn't know much about Texas...let alone Austin.
Well, from the minute I met him, I made sure that he know I had NO intentions of staying in the Houston area for long. I knew that as soon as I found my way out, I was going straight back home to Austin. I have never felt so at home anywhere else. Long story short, Eddie and I moved to Austin together in July of last year. i love him with every bit of my heart and I love living with him.
Here's my issue-
When we first moved in, I was going to school full time and working. He was working full time and decided to go to school in October. Our schedules never allowed us time to see each other...ever. We kissed each other goodbye in the morning and kissed each other goodnight after work or school. I dropped out of school in November and started working full time. Well, the bar I was working out was burned down in january. So from January through March I was jobless. So, I got to see Eddie when he came home from work and changed into his chef coat and ran out to school. This was a real treat for me.
Eddie graduated from Texas Cullinary Academy 2 weeks ago. So, from October through the end of July we saw each other less than 24 hours a week. Now that he's out of school, we have from 7 (after I get off work) until bedtime with each other and some Sundays...what do we spend that time doing?
Nothing.
and I HATE IT. I want to get out, I want to do things, i want to go places, I want to experience things, I want to live life!!!! We are way too young to just puiss our lives away sitting on our couch and drinking beer. But, everytime I present an idea to him that strays farther than the stupid suburb we live in...he instantly turns it down. (Downtown Austin is probably a 12 minute drive from our apartment)
I tried it again today. I sent him an E-MAIL with a list of about 10 things that are going in Austin this month. (half of which were FREE) He turned me down. So, I told him that if he doesn't peel his ass off the couch and start going places with me...even if it's just going on a walk or fishing...something simple like that... then I'm gonna start going without him. Simple as that.
I'm sorry if I've posted an entry before bitching about the same thing, but it really gets to me. I love this man so much...SO MUCH. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him...but, I'll be damned if I spend the rest of it just sitting around watching the world pass me by.