Mar 21, 2010 23:13
"So you take a picture of something you see
In the future where I will be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or write a song nobody has sung
Or do something tat's never been done.
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So you don't know where you're going and you wanna talk
And you feel like you're going where you've been before
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored
Nothings really making any sense at all, let's talk.
Let's talk.
Let's Talk.
LETS TALK"
I just wanna talk to you...again.
I wish words could describe what I feel right now. It has been quite a while since I've seriously considered writing anything in this silly thing It always seemed like such a great outlet for me now it feels so foreign and ridiculous to say anything of substance here. Lately, I guess, I have just not had anything significant to talk about. Suddenly though, everything seems to have gone topsy turvy. I feel like I'm walking through the world backwards or like I'm walking upside down.I really wish I could figure out where I am at mentally right now. My motivation is severely lacking and everything I thought I wanted has disappeared. I am stuck in this void of emptiness desolate of emotion and caring. MY heart wants to scream while my lungs just suffocate and my brain twitches at the many inconsistencies I am feeling.
In fact it almost feels like a never ending nightmare. Repeating the same mistakes that I've always made and yet they're not. (If that even makes sense).
What I guess I really need is that person to bounce ideas off of. I have to admit i've become so bitter and so irritable that Ive pushed anyone worth a penny to me away. I often wonder what things would be like if I hadn't said thing I've said done things I've done. Hurt those I have hurt.
Where would I be today?