drunk boys
things in marysville are on the up and up. my dad put in a window a/c until a real one will be installed within a couple weeks. i can now sleep and sleep i have been doing. today was a rare day where i had no energy at all, i just kept trying to do something, but then i ended up back in bed having weird dreams.
i keep thinking about how i'm working on making positive changes in my life, so far i'm pretty proud of what i am doing about. literally doing something instead of bitching or complaining can only get you so far...
i'm excited about the upcoming school year, yet i'm excited that i am trying to expand my horizons with new job opportunities. it's odd to be happy for both because in all reality one is going to end at some point and deep down i know where the end is going to be.
i get to see angela and tim on the 8th/9th, they are helping me with the drive on interview day and are always so damn positive and helpful when i'm with them. i can't wait until their wedding. *fuck* i am speaking (carrie bradshaw)...i just got nervous again!!!!
the one thing that is still rubbing me the wrong way is my relationships with certain men. if i go along and list it i start to see a trend (with the only exception being brandon) with people that i have admiration for and tend to give my heart to.
of course the trend is that i pick the wrong men. duh. but the more interesting trend seems to be is at some point, even the most unattainable (straight, commitment-phobic, in relationships) end up doing something romantic with me while drunk. it's sad, but true. thinking back when i was with my first guy, drew, he only came knocking on my dorm room door when he was drunk. then it goes on from there.
so the question is really...why does this trend continue? and why pick me? out of all the other people out there? after all is said and done, it just leaves me wondering what it all means. it makes me feel like fucking felicity! anyway, i'm talking to a very nice guy on gay.com.
my luck he is drunk.
i keep thinking about how i'm working on making positive changes in my life, so far i'm pretty proud of what i am doing about. literally doing something instead of bitching or complaining can only get you so far...
i'm excited about the upcoming school year, yet i'm excited that i am trying to expand my horizons with new job opportunities. it's odd to be happy for both because in all reality one is going to end at some point and deep down i know where the end is going to be.
i get to see angela and tim on the 8th/9th, they are helping me with the drive on interview day and are always so damn positive and helpful when i'm with them. i can't wait until their wedding. *fuck* i am speaking (carrie bradshaw)...i just got nervous again!!!!
the one thing that is still rubbing me the wrong way is my relationships with certain men. if i go along and list it i start to see a trend (with the only exception being brandon) with people that i have admiration for and tend to give my heart to.
of course the trend is that i pick the wrong men. duh. but the more interesting trend seems to be is at some point, even the most unattainable (straight, commitment-phobic, in relationships) end up doing something romantic with me while drunk. it's sad, but true. thinking back when i was with my first guy, drew, he only came knocking on my dorm room door when he was drunk. then it goes on from there.
so the question is really...why does this trend continue? and why pick me? out of all the other people out there? after all is said and done, it just leaves me wondering what it all means. it makes me feel like fucking felicity! anyway, i'm talking to a very nice guy on gay.com.
my luck he is drunk.