fuckin.... what?

[jay_d_thirteen]

what the fuck happend and why do i feel, like, hollow inside? who am i now? i dont really feel like a different person i jus feel like the old me, only drained of most feeling and emotion. o well i guess im jus bein a whiney bitch and i really should jus shut my fukin trap and let life happen but i wish i knew what the fuck i was waitng for. id love 2 say its a rough life but its really not, i havent even got nething 2 like have a right 2 bitch about but here i am neway. wow holy crap is anyone even actually reading this? seriously run now, i understand that its so pointless that its hard 2 stop looking at it but seriosuly think about the consicuences, this is like 5min of ur life that you can never get back! ever! stop look away now! well i dont kno what happend 2 me, everyone says im a compleatly different person now and there isnt a single person who is happy about it, like i cant even say im happy with who i am rite now cuz i have no fukin clue who that is. people talk 2 me becuase.... well 2 be honest im not really shure maybe people are hopein for the old me 2 come back. im kinda hopein i do 2 but it seems like no matter whitch old me i am theres always someone whos not happy with it so instead trying 2 make everyone happy i guess iv jus shut down and now im no1. im nobody, i havent really got an identity other than that kid who is way 2 obsessive of his g/f, that kid who changed,that kid who kinda knos sum people but dosent really feel like he actually knos anyone. that kid who wishes he at least knew his fuckin self.
i dunno
half the time i dont even pay attention to what im sayin
maybe i should
-jD