Just what are you doing, JA....
What was supposed to be a time for me to research and look for textures for my Maya final turned into a blog-surfing quest. It's 1 am now and I think I'm definitely not gonna get anymore work done this morning. Great thing that concept art presentation got pushed a day up so I get a whole free day for Maya, since I always neglect this subject (but
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Ouch, that's not nice huh? I know what you mean - despite being friends with some people in youth that I've known for a long time, sometimes their topics of discussion and their ways of looking at it are not what I can relate to. And I agree, I don't have the 'everyman' character like certain people have (Lyn, CH) either, which is something that they're blessed with, honestly! I guess the both of us just don't want to 'elbow' our way into conversations, but we don't quite want to be left out either...
...don't worry, it's absolutely understandable that you want to have a deeper connection to youth! We're a family in more ways than one after all in Him. However, despite our differences, there is always a bond there. And though we feel awkward at times, I hope you can find comfort in the fact that we are all, undoubtedly, children of God - kinda like the saying 'blood is thicker than water', I hope you know what I mean? Hmm. The Spirit is thicker than water, perhaps? XDD
Just to share: due to work life now and a different college atmosphere from the previous education environments I've been in, I find myself feeling more and more thankful for believers. Some people that I interact with every day have such different values and ways of looking at life, and I don't really know how to converse with them in a meaningful way. It's not like I'm 'holier than thou', and I really hope they're not getting that vibe from me, but the fact is that some lifestyle habits are quite inadvisable when it comes down to it, despite what the world says. And I want to get to know these people better, but I don't exactly want to encourage/support/condone these habits either. It's a lot of balancing work - it's managable so far, and it's definitely a part of education! So when I return to youth, or talk with you and Lyn, it really means so much to me - you guys know what I mean when I say I can't relate, and this fellowship with brothers and sisters in Christ is, to use credit card advert language, really and truly 'priceless'.
I don't know whether this encouraged you, but I hope it did. You're definitely not alone in dealing with other believers. We're all imperfect, and still people - our salvation is by His grace - and therefore, we cannot always see eye-to-eye with each other, and may not always be able to 'bond' with one another. Even my youth group had some age segregation (it improved sometime when you and I were 16), and we're SMALL, hey! It's like that.
We just have to keep trying for unity and to do our best, yeah? Even though the integration period may be rough, know that you are definitely a child of God and part of the church's family as long as you keep in step with Him, and this will always hold true no matter how uncomfortable you feel. *hug*
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Things are better now, though I'm still more friendly with the girls than the guys. Dunno lar, most of the guys are younger than me and I just don't know what to talk about with even the same-agers. I think I give off a sort of vibe that says: "I'm uninteresting! I look aloof! I don't feel like talking to you! Go find someone else!" but it's just cuz I dunno what to say. XD One step at a time lah. XD
So yeah, I'm grateful for the friendship that you and I have; this is one of the strongest friendships I have now and I hope will continue for as long as possible. X3 Love ya dahling, God be with you always. X3
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Haha, I really don't think everyone has that kind of personality! I too prefer one-on-one time with others; it's more personal and you really get to know people better rather than bonding in a group. But sometimes it can't be helped...and sometimes, it's actually better to know people in a group. (hmm, I just contradicted myself.. ><)
You don't know how thankful I am to hear that! Hehe, relationships with guys for me are kinda hard too (especially if they're good-looking, a-hyuk *Goofy style* XDD). Don't worry about your facial expressions/vibes too much, just be yourself but a bit approachable la. Things'll improve little by little, and I'm glad to hear that you're bonding with them a lot more. *hug*
I cherish you too sweetheart! XDD seriously though, not everyone has the chance to have such close relationships like this, and the fact that I already have one with you is something to be very appreciative about.
Going to comment on your other posts too! Bye for now~ ;)
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