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Wow its been like...close to a year since I last posted up in this bitch...and sadly things havent changed one bit since that last time. It's really hard for me to say if things have been for the better or if things.. are just getting more fucked up. It seems that I keep repeating the same mistakes I try to not make, but no matter what I do, I find myself in the same position. Whats really been the hardest for me to accept was the break up of this ends now. It felt like I lost a part of me. I didnt expect any one else to understand this, but why would they? Plus I dont blame them, they moved one and did something which is great, it really is. It just makes me feel really Desolated knowing that the only means of escape that I had are now gone. It used to be that I would be faced with this problem(AGAIN) but I would have the band to just escape from it all, and I wouldnt care about it anymore. But now what do I have? A 7 hour shift that only aggravates me more! The more time I spend in school..the more un-intersted I get. Maybe this isnt what I want to do for the next how ever years of my life. But shit what else am I suppose to do.
I always find myself thinking about it, this late at night,I hate it. I wish I could just have it removed from my brain and forget everything ever existed. I should move to france.
I always find myself thinking about it, this late at night,I hate it. I wish I could just have it removed from my brain and forget everything ever existed. I should move to france.