Monday night randomness...
So, I've been thinking. I changed a lot about myself in order to (I thought) better suit Kevin. He never asked me to make any personal changes and never seemed to desire them, but it made me feel more comfortable to change. I dressed a little younger, chose to forego wearing heels, and never wore anything but skirts. I've had an epiphany since breaking things off with him: I love my sense of style. I'm a jeans, button-down shirt, high heeled boots kind of girl, and I haven't really given myself the opportunity to be me. It's a relief to pull on some denim, zip up my knee high boots, and style my hair all sassy. I recognize the person in the mirror again, and that's very special indeed.
I might not be quite ready to date again, but I signed up on eHarmony.com anyway. I've been communicating with a guy named Victor, from Costa Mesa, and a man named Brandon from Redlands. I guess I'm afraid of losing my dating momentum, so I thought I'd go all-in once again and see what kind of hand I get dealt. The great part about eHarmony is the care they give to making the right match. Match.com was sometimes little more than people looking for a glorified booty call, as shown by my experience with Corey. I'm not interested in anything other than a relationship. I don't want to be the girl that a guy takes out for a couple of dates, then gets to sleep with. That's just not how I work.
Finally, Sunday afternoon was incredible because I finally found a home church in the desert! I've been trying churches off and on since I moved down here, and now that I've tried this particular chapel, I can't wait to go back. I'm counting down until Wednesday night service, because spirituality is a huge part of who I am and I miss that feeling of completion that fellowship brings.
I might not be quite ready to date again, but I signed up on eHarmony.com anyway. I've been communicating with a guy named Victor, from Costa Mesa, and a man named Brandon from Redlands. I guess I'm afraid of losing my dating momentum, so I thought I'd go all-in once again and see what kind of hand I get dealt. The great part about eHarmony is the care they give to making the right match. Match.com was sometimes little more than people looking for a glorified booty call, as shown by my experience with Corey. I'm not interested in anything other than a relationship. I don't want to be the girl that a guy takes out for a couple of dates, then gets to sleep with. That's just not how I work.
Finally, Sunday afternoon was incredible because I finally found a home church in the desert! I've been trying churches off and on since I moved down here, and now that I've tried this particular chapel, I can't wait to go back. I'm counting down until Wednesday night service, because spirituality is a huge part of who I am and I miss that feeling of completion that fellowship brings.