not today, just not today
i'm going on my third day sober. I came home monday during my lunch break and poured every drop of liqueur i own down the drain. It's a hard sight. But so it looking in the mirror and realizing that you lost control. That you lost it a long time ago. I've not had many sober moments in 8 years. I still want a drink. I guess I always will. I'm not saying that I'm going to stop forever cause that's a hard promise to keep. I promised myself that i wouldn't drink today. I kept that promise yesterday. "I wont drink, not today."
I had a great day today. I woke up on time. I made to work on time. I did my job well. I was alert and seemed to be happy with myself. I'm lonely now so it's hard not to think about that drink. Tomorrow I'll try it again. I haven't got a plan, but for today I wont drink.
I had a great day today. I woke up on time. I made to work on time. I did my job well. I was alert and seemed to be happy with myself. I'm lonely now so it's hard not to think about that drink. Tomorrow I'll try it again. I haven't got a plan, but for today I wont drink.