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I hate this panicky feeling, like the world is crashing in on me. I feel like my heart is going to leap out of my chest. I lost my xanax earlier this week, I think it fell out of my purse. I was doing okay until today. I just want someone to be here and talk to me to distract me from feeling this way. I tried to get Nick to come over, but he was going to bed. I even asked Dan to come over, but he didn't want to either. I feel so out of place with my friends lately. They all seem to have a direction and purpose with their lives. They also all have significant others. I have nothing, but this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach and the back of my throat.