Still Here
Two of the people I hung out with tonight, Tish and Dave, are married and now expecting their first baby. Tish is a little over four months along, and just beginning to show a bit. They were already juniors at Stoneybrook U. back when I was the sixteen-year-old that tagged along with their group. I guess it should make sense to me that they're actually settling down now and starting a family. Funny... when we were taking classes together, I never thought of myself as being THAT much younger than they were. Things sure have changed now. We're in completely different stages of our lives.
...What am I trying to say? Perhaps I'm simply saying that I wish I could move on, too. I'm a little jealous when I look at them and my other older friends. I feel like I should be settling down, too. Despite my feelings that this stage of my life ought to be complete, the reality is that I've still got graduate school ahead of me. I have to remind myself that I'm only twenty. I've always felt older than my actual age. I do look forward to graduate school, but not as much as I once thought I would. It's just... more of the same for me.
...What am I trying to say? Perhaps I'm simply saying that I wish I could move on, too. I'm a little jealous when I look at them and my other older friends. I feel like I should be settling down, too. Despite my feelings that this stage of my life ought to be complete, the reality is that I've still got graduate school ahead of me. I have to remind myself that I'm only twenty. I've always felt older than my actual age. I do look forward to graduate school, but not as much as I once thought I would. It's just... more of the same for me.