This will put a something among the chickens... how does that go?
- I have been open and honest about my mental state. Everyone knows why I am messed up and have irrational behaviour.
- My regular thoughts of cutting/ slitting wrists/ drug overdose have stopped. I will not be sorry for focusing on getting those thoughts out of my head and hence being self involved.
- I am number 1 in my life. I have no partner to take care of me. So I am selfish. I put me first. But I am beating this and I am getting better. So I will not be sorry because I am allowed to be number 1 and put myself first in a time like this.
-So if ANYONE has perceived my behaviour in recent months as
-Bitchy
-Irrational
- selfish
then i refuse to be sorry. As I stated, I have been open and honest about my condition. And it must be working because I am getting better (the most important thing).
So why the hell should I be sorry for that?
I know I am loosing friends over this. And it hurts... but what can you do? I KNOW my behaviour has been poor... but like I have said: I have been nothing but open about it and I needed to get better. And I am.
And that is all I have to say about that
***EDIT: ok ok. I AM sorry for my behoviour and it hurting people. especially if there was an attempt at helping me.
I guess out of that rant i was trying to say that I knew my bahaviour was poor, but i couldnt stop it. sometimes it was liek watching me in 3rd person. But i did try to tell everyone about my depression and hence why i was behaving that way.
GAH. Im such a bitch..... grr and now im feeling guilty about posting that... but I wont take it down because i had toget ot off my chest.
IM NOT SORRY THAT IVE BEEN SELF INVOLVED TO GET BETTER. BUT I AM SORRY FOR HURTING PEOPLE IN THE PROCESS. I NEVER MEANT TO.
- My regular thoughts of cutting/ slitting wrists/ drug overdose have stopped. I will not be sorry for focusing on getting those thoughts out of my head and hence being self involved.
- I am number 1 in my life. I have no partner to take care of me. So I am selfish. I put me first. But I am beating this and I am getting better. So I will not be sorry because I am allowed to be number 1 and put myself first in a time like this.
-So if ANYONE has perceived my behaviour in recent months as
-Bitchy
-Irrational
- selfish
then i refuse to be sorry. As I stated, I have been open and honest about my condition. And it must be working because I am getting better (the most important thing).
So why the hell should I be sorry for that?
I know I am loosing friends over this. And it hurts... but what can you do? I KNOW my behaviour has been poor... but like I have said: I have been nothing but open about it and I needed to get better. And I am.
And that is all I have to say about that
***EDIT: ok ok. I AM sorry for my behoviour and it hurting people. especially if there was an attempt at helping me.
I guess out of that rant i was trying to say that I knew my bahaviour was poor, but i couldnt stop it. sometimes it was liek watching me in 3rd person. But i did try to tell everyone about my depression and hence why i was behaving that way.
GAH. Im such a bitch..... grr and now im feeling guilty about posting that... but I wont take it down because i had toget ot off my chest.
IM NOT SORRY THAT IVE BEEN SELF INVOLVED TO GET BETTER. BUT I AM SORRY FOR HURTING PEOPLE IN THE PROCESS. I NEVER MEANT TO.