dream vacation
so lately i've been very restless at work. knowing that my position will be over in a month and knowing that i have no job lined up afterwards yet can do that. i feel like i'm not needed lately and i know i shoudl take the initiative to make myself needed but there is a part of me that just isn't into it anymore. i've lost whatever desire i use to have for my job and lack the desire to find something i do enjoy. i think this is what is called a "rut".
i've started to search for plane tickets to places i'll never really go, like austrailia and ireland, secretly planning an amazing vacation that i'll never take because i'm broke, almost jobless, and planning a wedding. speaking of wedding, things seem to be going well. my dad is paying for just about all of it and i have had a few important checks such as the venue (carolina inn) the dress (ordered last sunday), the bridesmaid dresses (ordered last thursday), the preacher (although sean and i have to meet him for 3 marriage sessions prior to the ceremony) and room blocks at one hotel (again the carolina inn). now that i look at it, i really haven't done anything :-( the guest list still needs to be finalized and save the dates need to go out. i almost wish it was sooner, i still feel like i have enough time to put things off but october 11th will be here much faster than i can imagine i'm sure.
i want to take a trip up to NYC again soon. perhaps margaret and i can go. i really want to see guys & dolls. and i really want to walk around the city and take the subway. i feel so alive when i visit new york. a part of me hopes mart moves their simply so i'll have more of an excuse to go up.
i've started to search for plane tickets to places i'll never really go, like austrailia and ireland, secretly planning an amazing vacation that i'll never take because i'm broke, almost jobless, and planning a wedding. speaking of wedding, things seem to be going well. my dad is paying for just about all of it and i have had a few important checks such as the venue (carolina inn) the dress (ordered last sunday), the bridesmaid dresses (ordered last thursday), the preacher (although sean and i have to meet him for 3 marriage sessions prior to the ceremony) and room blocks at one hotel (again the carolina inn). now that i look at it, i really haven't done anything :-( the guest list still needs to be finalized and save the dates need to go out. i almost wish it was sooner, i still feel like i have enough time to put things off but october 11th will be here much faster than i can imagine i'm sure.
i want to take a trip up to NYC again soon. perhaps margaret and i can go. i really want to see guys & dolls. and i really want to walk around the city and take the subway. i feel so alive when i visit new york. a part of me hopes mart moves their simply so i'll have more of an excuse to go up.