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I was doing ok, at least I through I was until I can back from Vac. Visiting family I have to say that this time was the hardest trip that I have gone on in very very long time not since the death of my best friend in college, and I force to face the family and answer all the question that only a best friend could answer, yet hating to share.
Well I don't have the answer to the question that people kept asking me while in Texas and Arkansan, all I can say is don't know, and I think that people got tired of hearing it.
I don't know what the future hold for all of us, I don't know how my sister will get through this, I don't know why it has happened and what it all means and there are days I just want to stay in bed and not deal with any of it. I go to work, I go home and I don't care if I still living in mass confusion, I don't care if the sink leaks, and I don't care if the dinner is ever done, I don't feel much like eating anyway. I guess you say that I just living day by day, and I know that things will get better but right now I just don't know.
The Holidays are upsetting me this year, I just just don't feel like shopping and by now I have most of my shopping done, but not this year... I didn't go out for Black friday which I love doing, I was flying to Texas that day. I made a promise that I would put my tree up Mom made me promise, I wonder if leaving it in the box out on the table would qualified I guess not. I need to find the tree and the box of christmas things in storage. I told my Mom that I was going to keep the holiday very low key this year and she told me that I needed to at least remember the true meaning of the holiday, I promise I would.
I look forward to this year being over, look forward to the New Year with new promise and new hope.
Always remember that the last thing that you say to some one may be the last thing you get to say.
Well I don't have the answer to the question that people kept asking me while in Texas and Arkansan, all I can say is don't know, and I think that people got tired of hearing it.
I don't know what the future hold for all of us, I don't know how my sister will get through this, I don't know why it has happened and what it all means and there are days I just want to stay in bed and not deal with any of it. I go to work, I go home and I don't care if I still living in mass confusion, I don't care if the sink leaks, and I don't care if the dinner is ever done, I don't feel much like eating anyway. I guess you say that I just living day by day, and I know that things will get better but right now I just don't know.
The Holidays are upsetting me this year, I just just don't feel like shopping and by now I have most of my shopping done, but not this year... I didn't go out for Black friday which I love doing, I was flying to Texas that day. I made a promise that I would put my tree up Mom made me promise, I wonder if leaving it in the box out on the table would qualified I guess not. I need to find the tree and the box of christmas things in storage. I told my Mom that I was going to keep the holiday very low key this year and she told me that I needed to at least remember the true meaning of the holiday, I promise I would.
I look forward to this year being over, look forward to the New Year with new promise and new hope.
Always remember that the last thing that you say to some one may be the last thing you get to say.