Facebook makes me sad.
I had quit facebook. I mean, I kept my profile up, but I refused to get on it. Being on it makes me remember the things I miss. The things I don't have any more. The things I wish I hadn't lost. It's been over a year. I don't know how to fix that rift. I don't know if it can be. I know, I know. "Take a risk!" "Don't let life pass you by; you don't know when it will end!"
What happens if I lose? I lost her once. It was devastating. I don't know if I could handle it if it happened again. If I were to attempt it, how to go about it? Pretend like everything is as it was? Have a long night of talking it out? Just thinking of it makes my heart race. I was wrong; she was wrong. We were both wrong about different things. To be fair, I started it. Too nosy, too meddlesome. Cared too much. Wasn't my place.
Hindsight's 20/20.
What to do? What to DO?! Anything? Nothing? Can I have a bodyguard? My stomach hurts. I miss. So much. Lost so much.
I'm going to dip my toe in. See what I can find. Maybe nothing. Maybe a nibble. I guess we'll see.
What happens if I lose? I lost her once. It was devastating. I don't know if I could handle it if it happened again. If I were to attempt it, how to go about it? Pretend like everything is as it was? Have a long night of talking it out? Just thinking of it makes my heart race. I was wrong; she was wrong. We were both wrong about different things. To be fair, I started it. Too nosy, too meddlesome. Cared too much. Wasn't my place.
Hindsight's 20/20.
What to do? What to DO?! Anything? Nothing? Can I have a bodyguard? My stomach hurts. I miss. So much. Lost so much.
I'm going to dip my toe in. See what I can find. Maybe nothing. Maybe a nibble. I guess we'll see.