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i'm almost 22 and i have the skills, habits and experiences of a child. i don't know how to do anything and all i do is lie around all day. i might as well not exist aside from some people who know me. there is no purpose in my life beyond satisfying my own dump feelings. i haven't done anything.
i had a nice day yesterday but all i did was walk around in the sun for a while and feel good about things. i'm so bored but i lack the volition to take part in anything interesting and that is as good as not having the ability to do so. what am i gonna do with my life. so far my answer has been whatever i roll over into.
i think i used to think i knew the answer to this question. i think i still do, i just feel so incapable of putting in the effort required and so distant from where i need to be, physically and mentally, in order to make it happen. uhhhh i think i could easily end up 36 and saying this exact same thing.
everything repeats, and everything turns out to be a lie given enough time.
i had a nice day yesterday but all i did was walk around in the sun for a while and feel good about things. i'm so bored but i lack the volition to take part in anything interesting and that is as good as not having the ability to do so. what am i gonna do with my life. so far my answer has been whatever i roll over into.
i think i used to think i knew the answer to this question. i think i still do, i just feel so incapable of putting in the effort required and so distant from where i need to be, physically and mentally, in order to make it happen. uhhhh i think i could easily end up 36 and saying this exact same thing.
everything repeats, and everything turns out to be a lie given enough time.