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So today we did No Frills in Campbellford. Woke up this morning, showered all fine, then threw up. Nothing but stomach acid and blood. And not a little like it was all dark red. Been doing that every morning for the past 3 or 4 days or so. Got to work, threw up twice, then had break, then threw up, then finished and came back here. Everything's been fucked up lately. I can't seem to be doing anything right, and when I do do something I think is good, everyone else just shrugs it off. Basically my life has resourted to Work, everyone else, and work. If it's not like that, people get bitchy and pissy depressed upset etc. Some days I just wish I wasn't with anyone, didn't know anyone, and could just do whatever I want with no one to whine or bitch or do any of the above stated. No matter what I do, I'm always stressed, and I'm always somehow Not doing the right thing. Hence why I smoke alot more pot and drink more now. There's nothing I can do. Nothing. I've tried being there for people, I've tried keeping distances from people, And it's still never good enough. Who knows anymore. Half the time I can't even say anything without someone getting pissy, depressed or anything with me. I don't know anymore. Alot of thinking to do. But it seems like I'm yet again getting sick like I use to. Meh. I'll live.. I always do. The day it actually kills me, maybe then people will stop whining and bitching and getting depressed and pissy etc towards me for any little thing, and if they still do, then they have issues. But I can see them still doing it. Who knows anymore. I'll write more later, depending on how I feel.