It's been so long, it's time for me to say something
I don't know why I'm posting this entry, but it's been a while so why not? So here I am, sitting in Tiff's room, using her copmuter while she's passed out on her bed, trying to dust off this blog thing that I have pretty much given up on ever since facebook got me addicted. I have midterms/tests in all of my classes next week, plus a Business paper due. For some reason tho, I'm not as worried as I should be. I have been feeling like this before exams a lot lately. Overconfidence often kills my grade, but the moment of remorse lasts only ever so briefly. Is that bad? I am gonna be busy studying this weekend. I want to put my main focus on O-Chem and Econ. I found out today that if I can stay awake throughout the entire lecture of chemistry I actually understand everything that the professor is talking about. This year is a very stressful year for me. Haas application is coming up, and I haven't had a business related job yet. My resume sucks, my grades suck, and yet I'm still persistent about applying to Haas, knowing fully well that by doing so I'm only making another person who's applying at the same time get in. Aren't I such a nice person? Anyways, as the deadline for application is approaching I'm more convinced that science is what I will end up doing, and if I do get into Haas for some absurd reason, it will just be a gift from God. Meanwhile I just need to focus on getting good grades this semester. I can't afford to have mostly B's again. Being the social chair of APATH is quite tedious. Thank God my committee members are beginning to help me bit by bit. I love my roommate. He's a genius in business, maybe because he owns like 3+ donut shops on the East Coast and here in California as well as car repair shops. He's a quiet person, but he's very knowledgeable. Oh, did I mention he's 25? He's funny too, and a lady's man as well, just like me. Hehe. Apart from the boring academics and dorm life, I feel that I'm growing weeker spiritually. I haven't got around organizing the floor prayer night thing, even tho I have been telling myself that I really need this. On another note, I know I made a promise to God that I won't get into a relationship this year and would focus on loving Him more instead. But somehow I feel like I'm about to break this promise. Or it might be in the process of being broken, I just try to hide it. I really don't want to break my promise with God tho. If I can easily take back what I said to God, someone that I love so much, what can I potentially do to anyone around me? I fear that my inner strength is not strong enough to overcome the desire for certain things in my life. I think I like someone now, but I am not sure if I have the energy or the time for a relationship right now. That's assuming that the girl I like likes me too, but that's a very big assumption. This is an entry to jumbled thoughts. And Tiff's monitor is not cooperating right now, it's flashing me pink-purplish light. Maybe I should wake her up and go take a shower myself. So long, and until next time (which I don't know when).