I want to rejoice for He has made me glad, but........
Lord, teach me how to rejoice when life sucks. I wanted to start out on a happier note, but that thought probably wouldn't have vanished if I made this update 5 hours ago. But still, I guess I'm happy for my roommate because he got a Residence Assistance (RA) position for next school year. As an RA, not only does he get free housing, other benefits include a big single suite to himself, and free meal plan with extra meal points. That alone saves him a substantially large amount of money. Housing costs more than the actual tuition. Good job Charlie, don't forget about me when I need someone to swipe me into the Dinning Commons. :) The reason I haven't been updating is because life had been busy. I have, however, been reading everyone's lj just in case you were wondering. I have been studying for different midterms every week now for four consecutive weeks. And I'm not gonna get any break this weekend because my chem midterm #2 is on Monday. And the week after that I have a midterm in Asian American Studies. That's 6 straight weeks of studying! Well, I guess for one thing, it's better than having have to cram for all of my classes in one week. I got my Stats midterm grade back. I felt really confident after turning in the exam first. And the score that I got back reassured me that my confidence was not wrong. However, Stat 21 is a class based on curves. Since the midterm was considerably easy, most people scored pretty high on it, and consequently, the curve was set really high. The average was around 85. The cut off for an A is 95. I am three points away from an A. I just don't see how my grade in a class should depend on other people's performances. You might argue that you don't hear me complaining when the curve is low and it actually helps everybody, and that's because the curve is meant to help when the test is hard. And my physics teacher posted the solutions to the midterm today. I missed one question, but there were only four on the exam. We had two hours to finish it. Without the curve, I have a C right now. And that's 20% of the class's grade. It occurred to me recently that I wanted to study abroad at Beijing over the summer. However, the application deadline is January 3rd, before I even came to Berkeley. And as Fall 2006 is approaching, I have to start working on my Haas School of Business Undergrad application. One of the requirement on there is that I should have working experience. But I've got none. None! I'm almost 19 and I've never had an actual job. That's one of the reasons why I can never get hired. I am going to talk to my academic adviser on Monday. I'm worried that more bad news will come out of that meeting. Chances are that the science and math classes that I took in community college won't be recognized and I might have to retake them here at Berkeley. I thought it was bad already that most of my AP credits didn't get counted, but now, my community college credits are at risk too. There's just too much going on, too much to worry about, and not enough time. I've begun looking for summer job or internship now that it's certain that I won't get to go to Beijing. Why is everything so stressful? Grrraaahhhh!!!!