not content
Why am i not content...i dont get it...i have this awful feelin in my gut and i have no idea from what....i have anxiety attacks in the car...why...my life is amazing...i have the most wonderful family even though they drive me insane most of the time my parents are better than any parnets i kno....besides bethys lol....speakin of..i have the most amazing circle of friends...were the crziest bunch of people and were every race and thats our favorite part....armenian mexican white girl and little indian manisha...were awesomness...so why do i feel like this....they love me no matter what...fat skinny makeup no makeup sad happy...i lvoe them the same....im just tired of not being able to tell stories of how someone one special did this and that....and nots even now...i thnk its like feelin left out u kno cuz i never even had one in the past...i just wanna have a normal 19 year old experience...dating...fallin in love..and getting my heart broken....i kno that sounds kinda stupid but if uve never felt it u kno its mising...anyways...what can i do...im tired of saying it but if it happens it happens i guess...im so tired of that line....