I have a headache...
Despite numerous great things that have happened to me this semester I can't get past this pervasive dull feeling I have all the time. It's as if everything I say and do just happens for no rhyme or reason, I feel as if I have no control over myself or my future. I know I'm not depressed because I have definitely been happy, anxious, sad, mad, and all of the rest of those crazy emotions. Maybe it's that there are so many things I want to accomplish and I feel like I'm making no ground on any of them. I want to get back into shape, I want to get all 4.0s again (which is SO very possible), I want to find someone special to call my own again. This semester more than ever has just been full of wierd emotions that I've never experienced...I feel like I'm changing once again but I don't know if it's for the better. Maybe none of this shows on the outside but I just don't feel like myself. I don't feel like the person that everyone knows James to be. Perhaps I've exhausted my resources? I'm not sure. I'm going to try and write in this thing quite often for a while to try and figure things out...hopefully I can get myself back on track. Laters.