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I feel so empty inside. Im so numb it hurts, i hurt so much im numb. I wonder... will anyone ever love me? Its seems like everyone else has that special someone except me. Im too dirty to be loved. who could loved an AIDS infested diseased freak like me.? I scare everyone away. I dont mean to though. at least not all the time. some people i push away cause i know that at some point they are gonna leave. run. so if you dont let them close they cant hurt you. but than you end up spending your whole life ALONE. i dont want to be alone the rest of my life. Im really trying not to push people. but so far im still alone. im still empty.