24. Jam - [Voice] I'm not dreaming so I don't know why others are everywhere I wanna be...

[jam_lover_13]

[Beyond sounds weak. Desperate. And a little bit angry]

I need help. Seriously. Anyone here who is used to social problems and those things? Please contact me...

[A pause]

I knew it would hurt. I knew it. ... Even if I didn't expect a situation like this.  I knew it was wrong. ...

Oh how stupid have I been? I thought the pain would be over with the

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[amphiskia]

...

I won't let you harm anyone. I promise.

[Video]

[jam_lover_13]

Mhm...
As if stopping world's greatest criminal was easy

[Video]

[amphiskia]

Hah. You never went against an online game character now, do you?

[Video]

[amphiskia]

Just hold on to what's left of your humanity. please. For their sake.

[Video]

[jam_lover_13]

What's left of my humanity.

THAT'S what bothers me!! If I wasn't human anymore I wouldn't suffer like hell...
Believe me... what wants to kill right now, is the most human part I have.

[Video] pffft that's so cute

[amphiskia]

Oh yeah? If you're no longer human, what would be left of you?! You would be nothing! Empty! I bet Ryuuzaki wouldn't even notice you if you weren't human!!

So stop that crap and start growing up.

[Video]

[jam_lover_13]

I am empty!! What is there?? I'M THE COPY! THERE'S NOTHING HUMAN ABOUT THAT! NOTHING!
I am not even sure, if I EXIST!
I have to prove, that I do exist! And nothing will stop me! Nothing! At least... the thing... they call... friends... the thing.. that hurts so much!

[Video]

[amphiskia]

You want proof, huh?

Why do you want to be loved and have friends? Why do you desire attention? Why do you hate being called a copy? Why do you feel like your hurt?

Because you're human! You're someone who stopped being a copy! You already proved your existence, damnit!

So stop being stupid. Being a human means you're going to suffer. But that also means you can be happy, too. If you can't take that, then you better just go and stop existing.

[Video] Beyond Birthday totally lying to himself... XD

[jam_lover_13]

Suicide, huh?

Do you know how many times I dreamed of it? I long to die! I really do!!
But not until I gave my life a little bit of sense.

This was all wrong, I feel it. Completly wrong! I do not want to be loved! All I want is to be in his mind! Noone else ever mattered!

[Video] Not working, dude. XD He knows this stuff already. And yes I'm abusing this icon.

[amphiskia]

Okay, you're not making any sense! How the hell do you explain what you were saying ever since before?! And you want him to think about you? That already counts as love, idiot!

Your life's making sense. Stop complaining.

[Video]

[jam_lover_13]

LOVE?!

I HATE HIM! I HATE HIM!

And don't, don't , don't say love anymore!