betterluck tommorow

[jalivar]

long term value is good
said she wants to be free...she will be free
free means no responsibility
no responsibility to me
im not the one in power, im not used to this, i hate it
in good times shes there
but she will check out when it gets diffficult
pain for me. pain for her too. she doesnt see that
life is difficult now, no responsibility to me
pain
is it possible to deal? do i want do deal?
think about other, will i just learn to want both?
am i fufilling a short term need?
is she?
why do we want to get married? what does that mean?
can we both be free? is it worth the pain?
will she turn her episodes around? she is a bad bet right now
going to take a long time... of irasional behavior
can i let go of her? do i have to? ultimatly, i need to for pain's sake
i said i would not. i am with someone. heh, a power struggle
is this really going to be better? the flowers will fall
bring on the heat
soon its her birthday. a fucking taurus. she said she wants freedom
she will be free
where will i be?