this dates realization... what day is it?

[jalivar]

i am a vampire drinking lifeforce for my own intellectual clarity. a vision reminded me of how succulent women are then we kissed the grass. the world came into focus. i realized my energy, detached it from the temporeal, found the greater compassion and its only justification, loved and hated at once and summarized my roots. our roots. but through all of this how do i hide the truth? i feed my own blood to any who will drink. i pour untill they turn away. sembiotic. ruthless. pathetic aquarius. god doesnt care, i know but he wont give me his power. he makes me thirsty. he makes me steal. all i want is balance, love and stimulation. he can be eternity.

i conclude she mustnt stay to love me. besides, lastnight i really didnt want her. so much pain. in her too. do i just crave distraction? i said i could do it but i was faking. on a full tank of fresh spirit my leo lept.

i love her so that i cannot even look in her eyes. then i think she shouldnt be looking in mine anyway. slut. dont forget this weekend. what you should have done saterday morning. remind yourself of monday night. see her again. keep looking on these spring nights for the romance that will last all seasons. dont be in denial, yesterday is drinking your blood. do the new thing and hide better.

but tommorow is too normal to come true. i am powerless. without my fangs, and she has controll. please, someone, help me if you can. i fear that god is dead