as this burden crushes me…
The burden of being an older sibling crushes me. The weight threatens to break my back, my mind, and my body. It’s so difficult. Everything I do must be the best. I am the example of my younger sibling. What I do leads to the consequences of her actions.
I have to work hard to be good at school, life and sport. I have to set an example that my younger sibling will follow and lead also. But sometimes, this burden is difficult to lift up. When I have my own problems, my own sadness to deal with, this simply tears me apart.
When I hear those whispered words it threatens to overwhelm me. These past days have been especially bad. I try to tell my friend but does she understand? I tell people things and that look at me like I’m speaking a different language.
Is what I want to say and tell you so confusing?
Is it that hard for me to tell you a little about the pain I feel that hurts my everyday and have you understand?
Is it so selfish for my to share my pain with you so that I can feel better?
I feel better as I write this but to have you not understand hurts me further.
It hurts so much.
I have to work hard to be good at school, life and sport. I have to set an example that my younger sibling will follow and lead also. But sometimes, this burden is difficult to lift up. When I have my own problems, my own sadness to deal with, this simply tears me apart.
When I hear those whispered words it threatens to overwhelm me. These past days have been especially bad. I try to tell my friend but does she understand? I tell people things and that look at me like I’m speaking a different language.
Is what I want to say and tell you so confusing?
Is it that hard for me to tell you a little about the pain I feel that hurts my everyday and have you understand?
Is it so selfish for my to share my pain with you so that I can feel better?
I feel better as I write this but to have you not understand hurts me further.
It hurts so much.