i will never sleep again. i'll never even close my eyes.
dear framingham state college, stop being fake.
i want to find new music. i love everything i have, but for a long time there's been something missing. what it is i have yet to figure out. who are you and why are you shying away from my ears??
there's a lot of rainbows on my wall shining through from the window. every color too. they're perfect.
i want you to say it. you need me like a bad habbit.
i love cold weather skies.
i want to go away for a while.
winter is setting in.
we've got to get better. i said it's all in your head. we could live through these letters. or forget it all together. see the months they don't matter. it's the days i can't take. when hours move to minutes and i'm seconds away.
if chasing our dreams. is just a distraction. i want to remember. but i know that i can't go back.
i've been having trouble sleeping again. interesting dreams in those few hours. i threw my body pillow across the room, but i don't know why. i kept waking up, in and out of conciousness, but i wasn't sure where i was. i thought i was half watching the howling 2, half in it. but my tv was off, and i don't own that movie. the werewolf from the first howling was in my room. next to my bed. i kept my comforter around me so he couldn't get to me. and i looked and didn't see him, but i kept hiding, even though i was hot, becasue i could feel him in the room.
why have a dream when you're awake?
sour brite crawlers come with a super sour packet now. i don't know how i feel about it. it's good i suppose, but sour?
far away.
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