Back With a Vengance
it's been a while. i think that's because there has been more yuck than good to talk about. i mean my friends are good, the dan is good, my family's good... kind of. and then the big yucky things start.
dale was put to sleep last saturday. he was 14 and a half. we got him for my fifth birthday when he was just a little puppy. i never remember him being any smaller than he was when he was full grown becuase we grew up at the same time.
some people just have pets. they're more like objects. having something with that much personality with you for that long is not just an object, but a part of the family, so excuse me if this sounds funny to some people, but he meant a lot to us.
he woke us up in the middle of the night with the saddest cries. even the pills wouldn't help his pain. my brother and sister came over the next morning to say goodbye. the face he made when my borther carried him to his car for his last trip to the vet was the hardest part. words can't explain. all those times in the past that he looked like he was smiling and laughing. this one was hurt. they say a dog knows when it's his time, and i believe he did. he looked so sad, like he knew it was goodbye, but i think we all knew it was the only way. and now i hope he's up in doggy heaven, able to walk and run and roll in the snow again. winter's coming.
i've never seen my brother or my father cry before that day. none of us could help it. every time i think i'd like to go say hi and scratch his ears i realize there's only a big empty space where his smelly bed used to be.
that was the end to the worst week ever. and the day before halloween. dan and nick's costumes looked great, and me and maeve carved a pumpkin and watched a horrendous cheesy horror movie, and then i went back and found that some hilarious pranksters had vandelized the 6th floor during the weekend. har har. then i woke up at 7:30 the next day to looked at my fucked up tongue to find it was completely black.
bitch bitch bitch.
good things have happened, i know it. went apple picking, entered my first points race at the dragway with redgie, saw some good shows like social d, finally visited amitatata.
but now the country gets ready for more patriot acts. i'm glad everyone has realized that a solid combo of homophobia, racism, and sexism is the way to run a country. don't look for a leader, look for values that match your own selfish standards. and if he makes a bad choice we're stuck with it, what the hell's wrong with changing your mind??
women, get out your rusty wire hangers or prepare to be punched in the gut.
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