If all we had was taken

Sep 05, 2010 15:58

Happiness, they say, is not permanent. Temporary is the nature of the world, and attachment to these things cause suffering.

I have desirous pursuits every day, time-consuming projects that are temporary and engaging. I have good karma that has built up over time.

If what I have was taken, at least I got to taste it. Always, tastes carry on.

If my band disbands, if my music-making stops, if a loved one dies, or if I'm caught by cops, if my entire life changes and "I"'m suddenly freezing, hurting, torn up and lonely, with nothing, I'm still something and I am still here. My pursuits will change accordingly, even if my memory disappears and everything that was loses its reality and even substantiality as food for dreams.

I might die- the ultimate liberation, for when you realize we are temporary, our life suddenly comes to light. There is no fear; every thing is right here, all there ever is or was- our only connection to anything. If you can still remember "such a time", be appreciative in the here and now. You might remember a past life: Appreciate it.

Why do I, self-proclaimed Buddhist, pursue a daily life full of musical stimulation, friends, good health habits, romance, and other personal projects? Because that is what I do; I may not some day; I'm here now and I do the best I can with what I have. I must. It's the only way. There is one life worth living, and I am living it. Simple as that.

I'm not perfect; I know for a fact I'm not actively, perfectly appreciative of what I have now. But I really try to put my best attitude towards it, knowing deeply what is right...because I know: I have the confidence that lets me see clearly and it's what holds my entire life together. Wisdom, love, and dedication to music. I know the things that hold me back are just things that guide me. Everything's a contribution, a source to my pursuits.

Things will inevitably change, maybe become worse, but so long as we are living there is a possibility for the best. The answer to what is worthwhile remains in how you're actively engaged in the here and now. If everything falls apart you still have compassion. You do. The proof is that you're here, I assure you.
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