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So todays the day everything goes downward.
I guess i really dont need to worry about it, because i deserved it. I guess this is what i wanted, just in the wrong form. You know the saying beggers cant be choosers well.... i need to follow that a little better. I knew this day would come but i thought i'd be happy. Im not. Im worried. Im kinda down, but i know i can deal with it. I hate myself right now because im now realizing that its my fault, and i wont allowed anyone to tell me any different. Im not going to cry about it, because i have no one to comfort me... so then shit would go wrong. so. insetad... ill write. But not in here.. b/c that'd be retarted. Amanda.. i love you for helping me, even tho i wouldnt allow you to make me feel better... dont think im rude, i just believe this is something that was supposed to happen, and im supposed to feel this way. It's not the first time... remember? Thank you Amanda Marie.
But overall i dont think i'm going to be pathetic try to fix it... b/c i wont get anywhere with it..i'd just feel like a jackass... or plain stupid.
Steph your recital was beautiful you and Gina.. were amazing..i hope you like ur green irish-y flower. lol
Kelso.. your a fun .. u also look cute in hats.
Night people.