let's try this again..
ok..so that really sucks..if you accidentally click back when you're typing your entry, then you completely lose your whole entry. that is crap. anyways let me start over. first, i am really excited to be home. i've been getting a lot of rest other than the few drunk dials that i seem to get every night..i mean..don't y'all have another number? j/k i love y'all and i want you to call me..haha. it's been great to be with my family and hang out with my sister more than i usually do. i started the job that i'm going to have for the holidays on monday, too. it's at wet seal. i love it. my friend is my boss and it's really fun to work there. plus, i get an amazing discount and i love their clothes! i have to work on the day after thanksgiving, so we'll see how that goes. i only have to work four hours though, so it shouldn't be too bad.
second of all, i made a move this weekend that i've been waiting to make for a while now. as most people know, i've been hanging on to a relationship that i've had for basically two years now. even though we have said that we aren't together anymore, we have still acted like it..talking every night on the phone, saying i love you, and getting jealous at the mention of us maybe dating someone else. finally, though, i decided to truly give it to God and try to see what it's like to really not have him in my life. we had a talk and decided that we should probably really spend time apart instead of just acting like we are. it's been a little lonely over the past few nights because i'm so used to that phone call right before bed, but i've gotten through it and that extra time has allowed me to draw near to God and really experience what it is like to let go and give everything to him. it's great to come to God with nothing in the way of my relationship with him. i love him so much.
last of all, this sunday was great. sunday school was really enlightening. when i found out it was going to be on the fruits of the spirit, i really wasn't too excited. i mean how many times can someone hear "love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control" without it becoming overkill? this time it was different though. jeff (my sunday school teacher) put into words what i have been feeling for some time. we discussed the fact that a lot of christians will say that they don't drink or smoke or kill people, etc. and they think that they are deemed good christians. however, that really has little if anything to do with it. of course, if God tells you not to do those things, then don't do them, but he says that he will know us by our fruit. our fruit has absolutely nothing to do with things that we omit from our lives, but with things that we add to our lives. we can refrain from doing "bad" things all we want, but that shows no fruit in our lives. God is more concerned with the things that we do instead of the things that we don't do.
i had known in my heart that omission wasn't as important as addition in our lives, but the fact that jeff was able to explain that and put it into words for me made me really happy. i like jeff. i like my church. a lot. there's so much wrong with it and so many fake people, but there are so many people whose hearts are on fire for God and i love that.
oh yeah, and i can't wait for turkey! i like that a lot too, but my favorite is cranberry sauce..i could eat it all day, but i'm on a new diet, so i'll only eat it until 6 p.m. :)
second of all, i made a move this weekend that i've been waiting to make for a while now. as most people know, i've been hanging on to a relationship that i've had for basically two years now. even though we have said that we aren't together anymore, we have still acted like it..talking every night on the phone, saying i love you, and getting jealous at the mention of us maybe dating someone else. finally, though, i decided to truly give it to God and try to see what it's like to really not have him in my life. we had a talk and decided that we should probably really spend time apart instead of just acting like we are. it's been a little lonely over the past few nights because i'm so used to that phone call right before bed, but i've gotten through it and that extra time has allowed me to draw near to God and really experience what it is like to let go and give everything to him. it's great to come to God with nothing in the way of my relationship with him. i love him so much.
last of all, this sunday was great. sunday school was really enlightening. when i found out it was going to be on the fruits of the spirit, i really wasn't too excited. i mean how many times can someone hear "love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control" without it becoming overkill? this time it was different though. jeff (my sunday school teacher) put into words what i have been feeling for some time. we discussed the fact that a lot of christians will say that they don't drink or smoke or kill people, etc. and they think that they are deemed good christians. however, that really has little if anything to do with it. of course, if God tells you not to do those things, then don't do them, but he says that he will know us by our fruit. our fruit has absolutely nothing to do with things that we omit from our lives, but with things that we add to our lives. we can refrain from doing "bad" things all we want, but that shows no fruit in our lives. God is more concerned with the things that we do instead of the things that we don't do.
i had known in my heart that omission wasn't as important as addition in our lives, but the fact that jeff was able to explain that and put it into words for me made me really happy. i like jeff. i like my church. a lot. there's so much wrong with it and so many fake people, but there are so many people whose hearts are on fire for God and i love that.
oh yeah, and i can't wait for turkey! i like that a lot too, but my favorite is cranberry sauce..i could eat it all day, but i'm on a new diet, so i'll only eat it until 6 p.m. :)