IR Trial Related Thoughts....
So......I *now* understand what happened XIV years ago during that "Blue Place" event, as well as a couple of times last year.
I have, in brief spurts, briefly collapsed & compressed a multiversal scale quasar object.
I have been carrying a shielded / internally sealed....multiversal quasar object.....around...within my being / body....for the last III decades?
And when and if I ***permanently*** squish / collapse it, my agony and suffering....as I witness 'undead' 'subanime' and 'anime' mankind will come to a close?
This knowledge, this discovery, is what I struggled for III decades to find.
I am ready for this to be over with.
I have ***NO*** desire to 'tour' 'anime' 'worlds'.
I just want to win, achieve my mission / affirm the safety of those I care about, and move on from the anemia and incapacitation....that has defined my last III decades. (Yea....."surge events", much like a heart beat and / or breathing, are supposed to be ***permanent***...anyway).
This year involves a transformed state of perception...for me.
Yea, I am ready to take root. Literally.
I am ready to take root, manifest more trans-dimensional _______, and ***stay*** rooted....as long as is necessary....to ***WIN*** this thing.
I.....I don't know what I was ***thinking***....in walking around this place for so long....rather than just taking root and winning.... . I apologize to those who watched over me, and waited for so long.
While there are II paths to permanent surge events, the Yggdrasil form sprouting path (*inhales and sighs*)....is the path that matches my current performance level?
I am so embarrassed...that last year....I did not even know what was going on, and just looked wide-eyed upon my roots in absolute disorientation.
Yea, knowledge, too, is everything in this world? No 'game' or 'anime'told me the truth about ***ANY*** of this stuff. I had to stumble my way to knowledge, and observe / study / learn on my feet......., and even as I witnessed the '***nastiest***' 'hags', 'liars', 'and' 'cheats'. I hope it is not 'too' 'late' to use this knowledge.
I have, in brief spurts, briefly collapsed & compressed a multiversal scale quasar object.
I have been carrying a shielded / internally sealed....multiversal quasar object.....around...within my being / body....for the last III decades?
And when and if I ***permanently*** squish / collapse it, my agony and suffering....as I witness 'undead' 'subanime' and 'anime' mankind will come to a close?
This knowledge, this discovery, is what I struggled for III decades to find.
I am ready for this to be over with.
I have ***NO*** desire to 'tour' 'anime' 'worlds'.
I just want to win, achieve my mission / affirm the safety of those I care about, and move on from the anemia and incapacitation....that has defined my last III decades. (Yea....."surge events", much like a heart beat and / or breathing, are supposed to be ***permanent***...anyway).
This year involves a transformed state of perception...for me.
Yea, I am ready to take root. Literally.
I am ready to take root, manifest more trans-dimensional _______, and ***stay*** rooted....as long as is necessary....to ***WIN*** this thing.
I.....I don't know what I was ***thinking***....in walking around this place for so long....rather than just taking root and winning.... . I apologize to those who watched over me, and waited for so long.
While there are II paths to permanent surge events, the Yggdrasil form sprouting path (*inhales and sighs*)....is the path that matches my current performance level?
I am so embarrassed...that last year....I did not even know what was going on, and just looked wide-eyed upon my roots in absolute disorientation.
Yea, knowledge, too, is everything in this world? No 'game' or 'anime'told me the truth about ***ANY*** of this stuff. I had to stumble my way to knowledge, and observe / study / learn on my feet......., and even as I witnessed the '***nastiest***' 'hags', 'liars', 'and' 'cheats'. I hope it is not 'too' 'late' to use this knowledge.