to ms. amanda meadows, whom i love more then all
dear mandi,
most of the time i can fume my emotions on the internet better then in person so i am going to try. i love you. i love you like i did yesterday and like i will forever. i dont want to love anyone else. i dont want to think about life with anyone else. your answer made me sad because as soon as you said it i realized that i would probably be alone for the rest of my life because i dont think i can love another besides you. if you dont want to get married that is fine with me but it makes me sad when you talk like you have no faith in our relationship. i put all of my faith into our relationship. i think we have a good one, in my opinion. i dont want to try to attempt to guess what your thinking because i am most always wrong but a perfect relationship is impossible. they all have problems and what makes them last is the ability to make it through those problems. we have made it through problems. we have made it through extremely serious problems and realy dumb problems that should have never happened but they did and we sorted through them. i hope we can sort through this one if there is one. i dont know what is going on because i dont know what your thinking or how you are feeling. i wish i did. i wish you could have said your speech tonight but you had to go. the reason i didnt dance at first is because you looked like you were having more fun with your friends then you would me and i want you to be happy so i stayed back. i want you to be happy. i hope your happyness doesnt lead you away from me but if so then i cant stop it. i love you. i still love you. i still care about you. the same or more. my love and caring for you has not changed. i hope yours for me hasnt also. i have to go to bed. i love you.
with love patrick
most of the time i can fume my emotions on the internet better then in person so i am going to try. i love you. i love you like i did yesterday and like i will forever. i dont want to love anyone else. i dont want to think about life with anyone else. your answer made me sad because as soon as you said it i realized that i would probably be alone for the rest of my life because i dont think i can love another besides you. if you dont want to get married that is fine with me but it makes me sad when you talk like you have no faith in our relationship. i put all of my faith into our relationship. i think we have a good one, in my opinion. i dont want to try to attempt to guess what your thinking because i am most always wrong but a perfect relationship is impossible. they all have problems and what makes them last is the ability to make it through those problems. we have made it through problems. we have made it through extremely serious problems and realy dumb problems that should have never happened but they did and we sorted through them. i hope we can sort through this one if there is one. i dont know what is going on because i dont know what your thinking or how you are feeling. i wish i did. i wish you could have said your speech tonight but you had to go. the reason i didnt dance at first is because you looked like you were having more fun with your friends then you would me and i want you to be happy so i stayed back. i want you to be happy. i hope your happyness doesnt lead you away from me but if so then i cant stop it. i love you. i still love you. i still care about you. the same or more. my love and caring for you has not changed. i hope yours for me hasnt also. i have to go to bed. i love you.
with love patrick