contemplating suicide.
d.j,
if i havnt been having such an awsome time hanging out with everyone the past couple weeks id probably kill myself.
but anyway.. i love my mechanic, because he always tells me the worst case senario, first im lucky if my car wasnt totaled, then it was 1000 to fix, then 700, then 500, and its done today, and its only 415. still 415 that i dont have. but atleast i have my car.
so yeah, first day of higher education, and honestly, college blows. dont ever go. but it was also my first day. and it was raining really hard. p.s. books were 345. more money i dont have.
and my dad still wants to kick me out. he thinks im a drug addict and the only reason i got in the accident was because i was high, and i was going to get some excstacy and weed from my cousin. which was true, but he dosnt need to know that. my dads rediculous,,, he was like "hes does excstacy so much that he calls it e." and ive called it e, so that makes me a drug addict.
well, anyways, i have my car, so i can move the fuck out now. thank god.
all i need to do is find a place to live, and find some moneys.
two days ago i thought my life was fucked. but now it seems to be looking up. all i need is to figure out a way to stop wasting money.
in other news sean told me that dennys was closed last night. what the fuck is that? next thing you know walmart will be closed.
it feels good to finally really be rid of the woman. i dont know why i didnt really end it the first time we "broke up." she seems to be having fun, so good for her. im glad all the bull shit of "staying friends" is over. i dont need any needy stuck-up friends. erik is enough, even when hes 300 miles away. (i have no idea how far dc is)
i really am addicted to cigarettes now. its not good, especially since i have all this time between classes. ohh well, it passes the time, and i look cool.
speaking of smoking, im gonna try to stop smoking weed till im out of this house ..which will hopefully be soon... thres a kid who was in my first two classes who wants to share a blunt between classes, so thats a good alternative to cigarettes. i dont know what im gonna do when it comes to that.
i also noticed a recurring theme with girls i cant stand, which wouldnt really be nice to mention in my live journal.
wow, i just got a call from the tow truck driver that i went to dennys with. he asked me about my car, and about my dads attempts to kick me out. then he was talking about how he wants to get out of his moms house, and how he needs to find a room mate. i think he was hinting that he wants to be a room mate with me. not gonna like, thats kinda weird.
is it weird that in my business class, he called out the name rothrock, and i was exited that matt would be in my class? no one said here when he called his name.. if thats not weird its probably weird that when i really hot girl walked in the class i was let down that it wasnt him.
the only thing that sucks right now is my 11 o'clock curfew on week days... which probably is a good thing so i can get some sleep before work and school. plus all the youngins are going back to school, so theres less people to randomly go to walmart, dennys, sonic late at night with. and less girls to deliver wawa and taco bell to at night... well i still could deliver it to them i guess, but really they should be asleep. you know with school and all.
man, being an adult is sweet now.
if i havnt been having such an awsome time hanging out with everyone the past couple weeks id probably kill myself.
but anyway.. i love my mechanic, because he always tells me the worst case senario, first im lucky if my car wasnt totaled, then it was 1000 to fix, then 700, then 500, and its done today, and its only 415. still 415 that i dont have. but atleast i have my car.
so yeah, first day of higher education, and honestly, college blows. dont ever go. but it was also my first day. and it was raining really hard. p.s. books were 345. more money i dont have.
and my dad still wants to kick me out. he thinks im a drug addict and the only reason i got in the accident was because i was high, and i was going to get some excstacy and weed from my cousin. which was true, but he dosnt need to know that. my dads rediculous,,, he was like "hes does excstacy so much that he calls it e." and ive called it e, so that makes me a drug addict.
well, anyways, i have my car, so i can move the fuck out now. thank god.
all i need to do is find a place to live, and find some moneys.
two days ago i thought my life was fucked. but now it seems to be looking up. all i need is to figure out a way to stop wasting money.
in other news sean told me that dennys was closed last night. what the fuck is that? next thing you know walmart will be closed.
it feels good to finally really be rid of the woman. i dont know why i didnt really end it the first time we "broke up." she seems to be having fun, so good for her. im glad all the bull shit of "staying friends" is over. i dont need any needy stuck-up friends. erik is enough, even when hes 300 miles away. (i have no idea how far dc is)
i really am addicted to cigarettes now. its not good, especially since i have all this time between classes. ohh well, it passes the time, and i look cool.
speaking of smoking, im gonna try to stop smoking weed till im out of this house ..which will hopefully be soon... thres a kid who was in my first two classes who wants to share a blunt between classes, so thats a good alternative to cigarettes. i dont know what im gonna do when it comes to that.
i also noticed a recurring theme with girls i cant stand, which wouldnt really be nice to mention in my live journal.
wow, i just got a call from the tow truck driver that i went to dennys with. he asked me about my car, and about my dads attempts to kick me out. then he was talking about how he wants to get out of his moms house, and how he needs to find a room mate. i think he was hinting that he wants to be a room mate with me. not gonna like, thats kinda weird.
is it weird that in my business class, he called out the name rothrock, and i was exited that matt would be in my class? no one said here when he called his name.. if thats not weird its probably weird that when i really hot girl walked in the class i was let down that it wasnt him.
the only thing that sucks right now is my 11 o'clock curfew on week days... which probably is a good thing so i can get some sleep before work and school. plus all the youngins are going back to school, so theres less people to randomly go to walmart, dennys, sonic late at night with. and less girls to deliver wawa and taco bell to at night... well i still could deliver it to them i guess, but really they should be asleep. you know with school and all.
man, being an adult is sweet now.