update
d.j,
it's late, i'm upset, and i really don't want to go to work in a few hours.
i really, really don't. i feel like thats all i've been doing lately. luckly friday, thiis chick comes back, which means i woln't have to work as many hours, but that also means i'll have less money. speaking of money, i'm making a lot of it, and i have none, or little to show for it.
i'm listening to bjork right now. i'm still really upset, and i dont know why. which i hate, because so far this summer i havnt really been upset over anything the whole time. i honestly thought i was through the whole dramatic, awkward teenage hating the world and everyone in it, including myself. but i guess not. at least not tonight. i've been sleeping, which as many of you know has been a problem for me, ya know, like how i seemed to be immune to lack of sleep. but yeah. i was seeing a councler, and a pychiatrist, and i just stoped seeing them cause i dont feel like it.
fuck.
writing this im starting to feel rage build up, well, rage is a strong word. it kinda makes me seem like the hulk or something. but anyway. i'm starting to feel really angry, and i don't know why.. i have the urge to lash out, and punch my computer. but my computer costs 1700 bucks, and i really dont want to. and i like everything in my room so i really cant, plus i dont want to wake up my parents.
but yeah, i really feel angry about being upset like this now, look what you made me do, you made me think about it. you son-of-a-bitch.
maybe i'm acting like this cause im thursty. im gonna go get a drink, then see how i feel.
-joe
it's late, i'm upset, and i really don't want to go to work in a few hours.
i really, really don't. i feel like thats all i've been doing lately. luckly friday, thiis chick comes back, which means i woln't have to work as many hours, but that also means i'll have less money. speaking of money, i'm making a lot of it, and i have none, or little to show for it.
i'm listening to bjork right now. i'm still really upset, and i dont know why. which i hate, because so far this summer i havnt really been upset over anything the whole time. i honestly thought i was through the whole dramatic, awkward teenage hating the world and everyone in it, including myself. but i guess not. at least not tonight. i've been sleeping, which as many of you know has been a problem for me, ya know, like how i seemed to be immune to lack of sleep. but yeah. i was seeing a councler, and a pychiatrist, and i just stoped seeing them cause i dont feel like it.
fuck.
writing this im starting to feel rage build up, well, rage is a strong word. it kinda makes me seem like the hulk or something. but anyway. i'm starting to feel really angry, and i don't know why.. i have the urge to lash out, and punch my computer. but my computer costs 1700 bucks, and i really dont want to. and i like everything in my room so i really cant, plus i dont want to wake up my parents.
but yeah, i really feel angry about being upset like this now, look what you made me do, you made me think about it. you son-of-a-bitch.
maybe i'm acting like this cause im thursty. im gonna go get a drink, then see how i feel.
-joe