uncertain
well mom called me at work today and cheered me up for a little while..i got accepted into the nursing program i was soo excited..i'm very proud of myself b/c i really didnt think i did good on the test but i guess i was wrong..so that gives me something to look forward to in august to honestly know i will have something else going on in my life that is a positive thing and something i can work really hard at to achieve what i want with my life..but i hope to go on to college and do other things than just be an LPN..i wanna be an RN or maybe even something greater who knows i just want something good to happen in my life to start sooner or later..here lately things just have been confusing and stressful..work stresses me out so bad sometimes i just feel like sitting down and having a big ole cry session..i just let too many things get to me..i can't help myself that is the way i have always been..one of my favorite ppl is not gonna be working at food city anymore..tomorrow is matt's last day and it makes me sad cause i like ole matt he is a good feller..but i'm sure i'll see him around every once in a while..i haven't been doing much of anything lately..i went to charlettesville last week to a specialists about all of my problems and well i still have to have more tests ran on me and they want me to go to this special clinic up there to see if they can help me but to be honest with you i don't think i could afford another trip up there..its very expensive..and i have a lot of bills that is coming outta my pocket right now..thats another thing i don't have money to even go see a movie anymore..pretty dang pitiful if you ask me..but i guess i have wrote enough crap in here for the day..leave me some comments and much love to everyone!
<3 JaDiEe
"Behind These Hazel Eyes"
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
<3 JaDiEe
"Behind These Hazel Eyes"
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes